Matthew 11

29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

I am – by nature- a lazy person. I work hard to overcome that dark side, but it gets the best of me from time to time.

I remember studying the above scripture and realizing that this was not a passive request. In fact the verse preceding it almost lulled me into thinking this would be an easy venture:

28  Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

Rest, I like that word- I like what it entails, it’s what I long for when my life is in a state of unrest. When I reach those points when I do feel “heavy laden” I want to drop it all, and lay down. But the instructions are to:

1st: Come unto me. That’s active. I need to move to get there. How do I do that? Well, prayer comes to mind

I’ve learned that I can speak with my Father in Heaven through prayer and that many times He speaks back through the scriptures. That means that I need to read and that takes energy.

Then the clincher is in verse 29, “take my yoke upon you”. That means that I need to abandon what I’m holding on to completely. Then I need to learn how to hook myself up in a yoke.

A yolked bullock team

Then the next part of that verse, “and learn of me”. I’m going to come back to this.

Then the next verse, ” For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. ” Wait a minute. What happened to my burden?

So here are my thoughts on this….

“Learn of me”. Learn of my Savior. From what I understand the Savior is my advocate, He atoned for my sins and is wanting me to return home to heaven when my earthly mission is completed. Jesus loves me and cares about every aspect of my life. So when I make the effort to come into His yoke I’m bound to someone who has my best interest at heart. He wants to help me through my burdens. So when I yoke myself to Him I can know that His goal is to help with my load. My burdens.

He is not accepting the weight of the issues I perceive, I am accepting His role in my life and maybe coming at them from a perspective that will make them easier to bear. Perhaps they’re not even something to worry about anymore because they aren’t as important as once I thought they were.

It seems, if I’m understanding this right, that by accepting the Savior’s invitation to take His yolk my life would be much easier. But as in all things, nothing good comes for free (or at least most things….I’m sure there are exceptions- like cheesecake!)

I have to say that the work developing a relationship where I’m ready to take my part of the yolk is worth building. The Savior already did His part of the work, He’ll take me any time and any way, He wants me there by his side. I like the song “Jesus Take the Wheel”, It makes me think that when I’m yolked alongside Him that he’ll be steering and guiding me through the rough roads. All I have to do is continue moving, keeping my stride up so I can get through them.

This blog has been 2 years in the making. I’ve expressed these thoughts with friends and family and they have percolated and stewed until I have felt comfortable in sharing.

I hope they are of some comfort to somebody out there.

While mom is gone…

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I very rarely leave the family and venture out on my own.

Last time I did Bill decided to remodel our kitchen, but had only gotten to the dismantling of it and when I walked in I almost started crying. Actually I think I did cry for a second.

I had just finished a week long camping trip with a group of young women from our church. It was a wonderful time, but I was bone tired emotionally and physically.

Tomorrow I leave to be with my oldest daughter. She is now 6 days overdue and I’m hoping to get there in time for the big delivery! I had planned it this way so that I could help her and her amazing husband by waiting on them for a week while they could just sit and love on Emery (Baby’s name).

Yesterday a friend asked me if I had all my plans in order to leave.

You can laugh- I did.

But then I realized I actually did plan it out a little. I left this day clear so I could do what I need to get done, only now I realize that I need 2 of me to do everything I thought I could do.

Things I can check off my list: clean kitchen, wash laundry, make bread, make food, mow back yard, take care of businessmen & seminary emails.

Things I have yet to do: clean kitchen (… I made food after I did it last time….), get a pedicure (this is not a must, just a wouldn’t it be nice…probably won’t happen) , take a meal to a friend (last minute thought- glad I made a lot of food), go grocery shopping, fold & put away laundry, pack, take dog for a walk, pick up pottery (Danni & I took a ceramics class), & I really should set aside some time for a shower and family time.

The house will not be pristine when I leave, and I have no expectations of it being that way when I come home. My children are old enough so that Bill can work and they are fine holding down the house. Danni is an exceptional cook and all Enoch will eat is cereal, sandwiches, smoothies and pancakes (and pizza – he loves cheese pizza), so the food I made ahead is more for my own peace of mind.

Bill has a ton to do with our business, so I know he’ll not have any chances to remodel anything (BTW – I love my kitchen now!).

A few deep breaths and it doesn’t look as impossible as it did before. I’m so blessed to have a family that can survive without me here, even if I don’t act like they can.